I’m in Lisbon.
We skyped for 6 hours tonight. This was our last conversation.
I won’t say that I will miss you.
It’s beautiful though knowing that someone like you existed.
Angus & Julia Stone | I’m Not Yours
Light me up a cigarette and put it in my mouth
You’re the only one that wants me around
And I can think of a thousand reasons why
I don’t believe in you, I don’t believe in you and I
Why is that I tried to stop what we had, before it even began. I was so afraid of being attached or getting hurt, that I said goodbye, even if it was beautiful.
I need to let go of the past.
Off to the film set. I’m doing the make up for a friends second short film.
I saw Vance Joy live last night. It was a beautiful concert. I love his music.
I’m eating cookies in bed, because I got my heart broken again, and I’m listening to Jack Johnson.
His lyrics just described everything.
“It’s such a tired game. Will it ever stop?”
I don’t know.
At least I’m not sad this time.
I mean, I am. But life goes on.
touched me, I
knew it would
hurt when he
One of the most beautiful things I learned this year is “never say no to a friend”. It means so much more actually. It’s also like “never say no to opportunities and adventures”.
I really enjoy weekends at home, cooking dinner, watching a good film and falling asleep, but I never made new experiences.
I’ve met so many new people in the last two months. Some of them I’m gladly to call my friends.
Two days ago, a friend of mine told me she has broken up with her boyfriend, but they already booked a vacation, but he obviously won’t go, and she asked me to join her. Ten days in Lissabon, hotel room already paid, I only have to book a flight. I have to work during the ten days though, but I went to my work place and asked my colleges, if we could change days or so, and they said, they will see, what they can do. So yes, I waited two days. They just told me, I can take some time off to travel! I just told that my friend and it made her so happy. I’m so happy.
Still, I never said no to a friend, and it’s so simple and changed so many things in my life.
When my friends called me and said, “Lina, what are you doing, let’s hang out, and have some wine.” I usually said, “No, I’m tired.” which I was, but now I’m like, “Ok, no uni and work tomorrow, see you in an hour.”
I feel like I’m now living my life and I’m finally making the experiences I always wanted to.
I bought two Paolo Nutini concert tickets. I can’t wait to see him live.